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9th-Jan-2015 04:34 pm - FANFIC: ON THE EDGES OF PERFECTION
TITLE: On the Edges of Perfection
GENRE: Angst/Tragedy
PAIRING: Kenshin/Kaoru
SUMMARY: On my brittle hope, she stands. The epitome of beauty, a miracle away.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin.

A/N: Reposting my Rurouni Kenshin (Jinchuu arc) fanfic from 2013 because I see that the fandom has become alive again (*tears of fangirl-y joy*), and I just wanted to share. :) This is actually the fandom that I’m most fearful of writing a fanfiction on, because I love it so much that I almost hold it sacred, and I my writing “skills” might just taint it. Ugh. But I still want to contribute to the community, so here it is.

Also, hello, LiveJournal. It's been... FIVE YEARS. So, uhm, hi.

She is my punishment.

Sometimes I still meet her in my dreams, when the sky is at its blackest, and her eyes are the only light I need.

Her eyes. Oh, how I love her eyes.

They are bluer than the ocean, deeper than the trenches. I could sense my being swimming in those pools of azure until I reach her depth, until I fully know her.

When they see me, they see straight into my soul. They see the blood on my hands and the ghost of my enemies. They witness all my darkness, my regrets, my past.

She embraces all of them. She embraces all of me.

I could never hide from her. I would never hide from her, because she deserves only the truth. And the truth is that I am far too broken to provide her the happiness she deserves. Far too damaged to be worthy of her time.

Yet, I remain selfish.

Yet, she smiles.

And her smile, I love it, too.

It is sincere and youthful and innocent. When she smiles at me, it’s as if she knows I still have a second chance at redemption, that the tiny spark of humanity my bloodstained past left me with is all I ever needed to be saved. When she smiles at me, it’s as if I’m a lost child and she is the angel to guide me home.

Home. I never had one in a long time, but this, too, she gives me.

Her gentle hands and loving arms provide me with warmth in my otherwise frozen world. When I feel her touch, all my self-delusions are dispelled, and my feet are once again rooted to the ground, and my hands are able to grasp the reality that is before me.

She is my reality. She is my truth.

But her skin starts to glow, followed by her smile, then her eyes.

She is my reality. She is my truth.

I can feel her embrace weakening, and I start to hear nothing.

She is my reality. She is my truth.

Frantically, I cling to her presence, but I feel myself losing against the force of the waking world, like a helpless leaf the wind tears off from a tree. From my source of life.

And there, I would ask mercy from all the gods to let me keep her. And there, I would be held immobile by the cold, hardened hands of the people whose lives were taken away by my sword.

She is fading, but not so.

In between my laborious sleeping and my unwanted waking, she remains there. On the edges of perfection, she stands, but does not beckon me to come. On my brittle hope, she stands. The epitome of beauty, a miracle away.

In what little sanity I have left, she sees me, she smiles, and she is constantly present.

But perpetually unattainable.

She is my punishment.

2nd-Jan-2010 11:40 am - FANFIC: Temporary Death
TITLE: Temporary Death
GENRE: Angst/Tragedy
PAIRING: Zero/Yuuki
WORDS: 522
SUMMARY: The kiss lasted only for several seconds. It was not for romance, or for reconciliation.
DISCLAIMER: Vampire Knight is Matsuri Hino’s.
A/N: I normally write at night, but I woke up from a four-hour sleep this morning with these thoughts in my head. Inspired by chapter 46.

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31st-Dec-2009 09:26 pm - FANFIC: In Between
TITLE: In Between
SERIES: Vampire Knight
PAIRING: Zero/Yuuki
SUMMARY: Detesting her with a passion was one thing. Loving her deeply, faithfully, inescapably, was another.
DISCLAIMER: Vampire Knight is Matsuri Hino’s.
A/N: Zero-centric drabble.

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7th-Jul-2009 10:19 pm - Rant?
So I've just found out that Ryan Ross and Jon Walker are leaving Panic at the Disco...


I can't believe it. This is all too sudden! I can understand that they all have their different tastes that would lead them to their own musical endeavors, but Panic at the Disco without Ryan? Just the thought of it is unbearable! (No offense meant to Jon.) I mean, Ryan practically made and defined Panic. He wrote the songs that shaped what the band has become. I just can't imagine how things will go for PATD now...

Is it too late to wish for a selfish miracle?

18th-Jun-2009 02:55 am - No School = Fangirling
Oh yes. It's always like that. Well, while I wait for my graduation, which has been moved due to some community health complications, I'm just a lazy-ass around the house, increasing our electricity bill as I constantly use my laptop, and being a creature of the night at that.

What's on:
  • Toradora! - "It's a freakin' love story!" That's what my guy friend said when he told me to watch it. My cousin, who is a very close friend of mine, had the same experience with his guy friends. Strangely amusing, to hear comments like that from them haha. It is a shoujo anime after all. I finished the series last night, and I can say that it's a good one. The main characters are not the typical ones you see in other anime/manga. The plot is pretty ok, and the mixture of drama and humor blends well. (I've heard some comparisons of this with Ouran High School Host Club. In my opinion, Ouran is better. It's just that the anime's number of episodes wasn't enough for the romance that was supposed to bloom.)
  • La Corda d'Oro ~Secondo Passo~ - It's actually La Corda d'Oro ~Aoi Kaji Special-o~ HAHA. WTH, lame attempt to joke. Can we, fans, still hope for a real season two?
  • Kuroshitsuji - How do I describe this? Elegantly morbid. I'm only on the sixth episode but I already like this anime and its Faustian concept. Sebastian is one hell of a butler indeed.
  • Hagane no Renkijutsushi: Brotherhood - Ahhh, one episode per week is barely bearable. This second animation is quite faster than the first in terms of pacing. By now, Brotherhood has reached the part where the Elric kyoudai and Winry visit Rush Valley. (YES, Maes Hughes' death is over. /despair)
  • Tears to Tiara - When I first saw Animax's advertisement of this, I thought I wouldn't like the anime. Guess I was wrong. I'm not totally fangirling over it, though. I'm just a casual fan, but I do keep track of it every Sunday night.
  • Gurren Lagann - I've read so much positive stuff about this. My younger brother finished the series already. I told myself that I'm gonna watch it but, I'm not that motivated... yet.
  • Rurouni Kenshin - Yeah, I know, this is old. But there's one thing I've always wanted to watch over and over and over again: Kenshin and Saitou's fight at the Kamiya dojo. That's the best episode for me. Whenever it's shown on TV, I make sure that I see it. (There's something better about watching shows on TV than just watching it online.) On Monday, it was shown... and I completely forgot about it. OTL Epic epic fail.
  • Vacation - A 4-episode Korean drama featuring DBSK. I have to be honest, I only watched the third episode, which stars the androgyny that is Kim Jaejoong.
  • Smile - What the hell happened to me and my love for the ever adorkable Matsujun? I got stuck on the first episode! D: But I won't abandon you!
  • Mei-chan no Shitsuji - What is it with Japanese butlers? Gah! /flail I told myself countless times before (and by "before" I mean when the series first released it's pilot episode) that I'd watch this. And now the series is over. Phail~ OTL Tomorrow/Later, for sure!!
  • Boys Over Flowers - Errr... I told myself back then that I won't watch this version. Stubborn pride for Hana Yori Dango. But I think I'm getting interested in this. =3= But Tsukushi/Domyouji still owns my heart~ X3
What else did I forget?

On a related note, like always, I'm waiting for manga updates that just take too long to come. I know I can't do anything about those, so I just roam around the Internet to satisfy my fangirl whims. And those are granted by images like this:

ZOMGWTFBBQ!!!!1 This is from the game, isn't it?
Tsukimori Len, you will be the death of me!! D: /spazztic fangirl flail


Kure Yuki-sama, when's this gonna happen???

*sigh* And on this flailing, I shall go. Oh, look at the time. I never fail to mess up my body clock. /facepalm
Pleasant something~

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